And I realised what i had left behind in all these months .. myself. So many months of solitude and it took one confrontation with death to realize that.
Every man has a code to live with and so do I. That is the reason why you feel restless..angry..irritated all the time if you are not following it. Evidence for this - no post in last so many months.
Death... I mean Accident.. it taught many things. How fragile you are. No seriously! Nothing bookish or Shakespearian! Its absofuckinlutely true. Those end seconds after you realize you can't control and before you hit, its waterfall of thoughts which you experience. How to save yourself? Why did i fight with my best friend? Is there any way of reducing the impact? Is this the end? Your mind at that time leaves control to impulsive control system of the body, giving way to all your life thoughts to flow in!
And then there are miracles.. falling at such speed and still no broken bone..u got to be kidding right! Lying on the road..drenched in blood with jeans, jacket, shoes torn..one leg at odd angle and one feelingless hand .. you cant make your mind whether you are alive or dead. Well you never see sky at that "lying on the road with numb body feeling" angle! Do you?
Therefore, lying on the bed with nothing to do for days but either to watch some sitcom or ponder over things, realizations happen. So much free time for yourself makes you think clearly.
Its been a full one month today! Now no jogging though but limping.. no lifting stuff with hand, just using it casually. Life is slowly coming back to normal. But with a lesson..there are many things in life to do and you dont know anything about how many of them will you be able to complete before its time. So best is to live like its your end. And be happy with everyone around you or dont be around with the ones you are not happy with because you really don't wanna be on fighting terms with anyone in your last time!
Every man has a code to live with and so do I. That is the reason why you feel restless..angry..irritated all the time if you are not following it. Evidence for this - no post in last so many months.
Death... I mean Accident.. it taught many things. How fragile you are. No seriously! Nothing bookish or Shakespearian! Its absofuckinlutely true. Those end seconds after you realize you can't control and before you hit, its waterfall of thoughts which you experience. How to save yourself? Why did i fight with my best friend? Is there any way of reducing the impact? Is this the end? Your mind at that time leaves control to impulsive control system of the body, giving way to all your life thoughts to flow in!
And then there are miracles.. falling at such speed and still no broken bone..u got to be kidding right! Lying on the road..drenched in blood with jeans, jacket, shoes torn..one leg at odd angle and one feelingless hand .. you cant make your mind whether you are alive or dead. Well you never see sky at that "lying on the road with numb body feeling" angle! Do you?
Therefore, lying on the bed with nothing to do for days but either to watch some sitcom or ponder over things, realizations happen. So much free time for yourself makes you think clearly.
Its been a full one month today! Now no jogging though but limping.. no lifting stuff with hand, just using it casually. Life is slowly coming back to normal. But with a lesson..there are many things in life to do and you dont know anything about how many of them will you be able to complete before its time. So best is to live like its your end. And be happy with everyone around you or dont be around with the ones you are not happy with because you really don't wanna be on fighting terms with anyone in your last time!
